Sindy's Blog - August 21, 2003
All I want to do right now is crawl into bed and never come out. Dylan's been calling me non-stop but I'm refusing to answer the phone. I just do NOT want to talk to anyone for a while. Simon had to head home yesterday, so I am officially the biggest mess you've ever seen.
Simon did offer to beat Dylan up for me before he headed home but that wouldn't have solved anything. I don't know if Dylan and I will ever be able to be friends again but I don't want to do anything stupid in case we manage to work things out someday. I really, really want to talk to Dylan about everything right now but it just hurts too much. Boys suck.
As if I'm not going through enough, the 'rents are starting to act all freaky again. It's like we never left home. They're avoiding each other as much as possible and when they do talk it's more like grunting than normal convo. I don't have the energy to put up with their stupid games right now. I'm sort of dealing with a big crisis. But do they care? No!
Is it too much to ask to just have a normal life? One where your BF doesn't kiss your friend and your parents aren't at each other's throats all the time. I'm so tired of all this drama. Even though the sun is shining and it's super hot, I am going to stay in my pajamas today and watch videos. Nothing else - just watch videos. If the world isn't going to be nice to me, I'm not going to be nice to the world.Sindy