Basically, I went though major depression which revolved around self harm, self hatred, and contemplating suicide at least every day. This dragged on for about a year making me an emotional mess. Then into Summer 2012, I was forcing myself to be happy because I didn't want to be sad anymore. I went to major depression to insane amounts of happiness within a few months. I don't feel anything. Literally nothing. I feel dead every day. Not in a depressed way, just literally nothing.
Am I even making any sense?
It was great being so happy. I felt like the old me-before the depression, obviously. I made a lot of friends which added to my self confidence. Then during Winter Break 2012, I started to not care. I thought it was cool, which it isn't. Don't think not feeling anything is cool because It makes me feel confused all the time. I'm not happy or sad, I'm confused every day. I don't hate myself, I'm not depressed. I'm just trying to right my happiness back. I know this sounds really cliche and nobody really cares about anything I'm saying right now. But if you're reading this and now what I'm talking about, contact me.