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I know this doesn't really belong in the '"family issues." But I have no idea where else to put this in the forums.

Basically, I went though major depression which revolved around self harm, self hatred, and contemplating suicide at least every day. This dragged on for about a year making me an emotional mess. Then into Summer 2012, I was forcing myself to be happy because I didn't want to be sad anymore. I went to major depression to insane amounts of happiness within a few months. I don't feel anything. Literally nothing. I feel dead every day. Not in a depressed way, just literally nothing.

Am I even making any sense? 

It was great being so happy. I felt like the old me-before the depression, obviously. I made a lot of friends which added to my self confidence. Then during Winter Break 2012, I started to not care. I thought it was cool, which it isn't. Don't think not feeling anything is cool because It makes me feel confused all the time. I'm not happy or sad, I'm confused every day. I don't hate myself, I'm not depressed. I'm just trying to right my happiness back. I know this sounds really cliche and nobody really cares about anything I'm saying right now. But if you're reading this and now what I'm talking about, contact me.

kitty


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1. Talk to your parents. Tell them what's going on, what you feel, and how you're doing.

2. It's probably a little thing your going through right now, to get through it try to do things you use to love? Go to the mall, talk about guys, etc.

3. You might still have depression. The symptoms are;




  • Persistent sadness, pessimism




  • Feelings of guilt, worthlessness, helplessness, or hopelessness




  • Loss of interest or pleasure in usual activities.




  • Difficulty concentrating and complaints of poor memory




  • Worsening of co-existing chronic disease, such as rheumatoid arthritis or diabetes




  • Insomnia or oversleeping




  • Weight gain or loss




  • Fatigue, lack of energy




  • Anxiety, agitation, irritability




  • Thoughts of suicide or death




  • Slow speech; slow movements




  • Headache, stomachache, and digestive problems





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read advice too you? the thread made by brunostar


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Hi Super, I used to self harm a lot too, eventually i stopped though. I think you should go to a consular, but this is what i think happened. It happened to me too, the feeling "nothing", like your on auto-pilot. When you get stressed, everything in your body goes in over-drive mode. Then your brain goes "click" and shuts-down. What I mean is, you probably feel that way because of high or lingering stress. It's called depersonalistion or disrealistaion. Hope I helped, and if you ever need anyone to talk to, I'm here smile

-madstar smile


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