My parents are divorced and I used to live with my mom, she was abusive and cruel, so were my sisters. I wanted to commit suicide because everyday my sisters called me fat, ugly, they told me I had no friends and anything else you could possibly think of. My mom didn't do anything when they would say that. I wanted to live with my dad so badly, I felt like a prisoner, because I couldn't escape. My mom said if I left she would kill herself, I was scared to death, I always hid in my room and cried while listening to my sisters talk crap about me while my mom just went along with them saying how I am a spoiled brat, I have no life, and etc. After my mom began getting worse and worse she got ##### and went up to this mans house on Christmas, she promised to actually do something with us this year, I was mad as I cold possibly be she stayed up there from about 5 pm to 3 am, once she finally came back that's when I finally gave up and exploded with my temper, I told her she was worthless, I told her she is abusive, and I told her she is not my mother and I told her you cannot replace this Christmas and how this will forever be in my memory, I went to my room and cried while my sisters were talking crap about me to her again. This was later - she was outside with that same man talking about me bad again calling me a brat to the man and how she hated me, I had no love in my heart left for my mother, she came in after that and I told her once again "how could she?" this was the night I went into my room and could not handle it anymore, I took a CD case my brother gave me (he was the only nice one) I broke the end of it off and cut my wrist with it. I kept it to myself... One night my mom got ##### and told me I was a *blank* over and over again she told me she would hurt me she tried running up to me before I slammed the door and called 911, I was sick of it, with the nervousness in my stomach I hung up right when the woman was saying 911 what's your -- I locked the door and my mom didn't get in until the morning .. About 2 weeks later that was when I exploded, my sister Jessica was calling me fat, ugly, and telling me I had no friends as usual, when my anger exploded, I got right up in her face pointed my middle finger out at her and said "shut your mouth now because you don't scare me, and guess what Jessica? I'm leaving RIGHT now to live with my dad so DON'T WORRY!" I couldn't help it and before I could even control myself I told my mom ###### you! I don't care if you commit suicide because I almost did because of YOU!" I told everyone to ##### themselves and began packing, my mom then cried but I had no love left for her I ignored it, the entire time I was packing Jessica gave me a dirty look, I would just smile back, then I laughed right next to Jessica saying "Wow this is funny how this all happened near New Years Eve!" I have so much more to tell about my life but I was trying to make a point don't commit suicide because I was brave and soon went to live with my dad. I go to a small public school now and am very happy
STAY STRONG.. And all I have to say to my sisters is "THANK YOU" And know what happened to them? The people I said I didn't have a good feeling about (my sisters friends) they soon got robbed and later found out it was them.. I told them so. YOU CAN MAKE IT I DID, AND I NOW LAUGH ABOUT IT, I GET HAPPY THINKING ABOUT THE MOMENT I STOOD UP FOR MYSELF!