So, I've been having on and off suicudal thoughts for five years now. Like, I've never cut myself (but I've bruised myself, and scratched my leg until it bled for no reason) but sometimes I'll have a really bad day and then I'll search for ways to die.

I'm not looking for attention or anything, I mean, I know I would never #### ######.
But I was wondering if this is anything to worry about?
I know I wouldn't do anything, but I was wondering if it's normal to be having these thoughts for this long, and if anyone else has been struggling with this type of thing.

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You sound like me. I constantly fell and do as you do very often. It is a normal thing but not to do very often. 1-4 times a year would be average. I think you, like me, need to search for what is causing your negativity, and learn how to avoid or get rid of the cause. The problem could worsen as mine does when I let the problem go, and later the problem reappears. Sometimes you just have to think how much the good outweighs the bad. You may remember more bad things, but that is so your body can remember to learn from the mistake. Your body doesn't learn from good things. I sincerely hope I helped.

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i feel like that too sometimes but it al works out with friends to talk yo

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stay around the ones that love you and make you smile.  it helps alot.

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Just know, that when people
kill themselves, they don't want to end
their life. They want to end their pain.

P.S_ If you wanted to #### ########.
you would've already done it.
But keep strong love.~

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