"I'm just one of those girls to you, aren't I... You do this to every single one of them, and then the next day pretend they don't exist..."
I couldn't believe this. I hid my face in my hands and started to cry. It made perfect sense. He had run out of popular girls to do this to, so he moved on to the losers. Why would he lie and say he loved me... Did he say it to everyone? Everything was crumbling from underneath me. I wanted to just disappear. 

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My jaw dropped "no...Grace you've got it all wrong! Please forgive me!" I pleaded "I shouldve waited, talked to you about it, I thought thats what you wanted." I slowly began to cry "I know I've done stuff in the past but that was just messing about! I love you" I insisted "I love you so much!" I begged reaching out for her hand then pulling away again.

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I gazed at him as tears rolled down his face. He was sincerely crying... So maybe I wasn't just one of them...
"Im... I'm sorry Jasper."
I bit my bottom lip and tried to hold back the tears.
"I just assumed..."
I felt terrible. I made him cry... I was a terrible person.
"Im so sorry..."
I wanted to just hug him and never let go. I wanted to make his hurt go away. But I had the feeling he wouldn't want to touch me. I started digging my nails into my arms, biting my lip,  trying to hold back the tears. I deserved the pain in my arms. I dug my nails in deeper.

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"No!" I shouted "stop!!" I pulled her arms away from each other and trying to stop her hurting herself. "Grace don't, please" I begged, embaracing her and trying with all my heart to make it better, to turn back time, this was my fault, not hers

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I wrapped my around him and cried into his chest.
"Im so sorry..."
My voice was quiet, soft. I wanted him to forgive me. I waited for him to wrap his arms around me, and accept my apology. 

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I held her close "shush, it'll be ok, it'll be ok..." I mumbled into her hair

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I was shaking, crying into his chest. I hated myself.

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I wiped her tears away softly. "Please don't cry" I murmered "I thought we were getting somwhere" i sighed, holding her in a embrace again

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"We were..."
I didn't want to lie to him...
"It's just... I've never went so far that fast... It just.. Scared me."
I closed my eyes, embarrassed. I didn't want to actually admit I actually hadn't ever gone that far... I blushed wildly. 

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I kissed the top of her head "and I'm ok with that" I promised "I understand, and you must always tell me about this kind of stuff" I continued "sometimes I get carried away, and have to suffer the consequences". I tilted her head up a tiny bit, barely touching her. That's when I noticed how red she was and I pulled my hand away and looked down at our feet. "Grace...have you ever..." I trailed off

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