"dxkotx" wrote:I feel like is it really worth it. Like everyday I am sad and feel like dying but what for? I don't know. I am very depressed and it is hard to explain. People just don't understand. NO I am not being bullied. NO I am not being abused or anything. I just feel no like myself anymore. Kinda like I am done with life and all it has to offer because everything that it offers isn't good in my way of seeing things. I mean im not trying to be selfish and say "Oh everything has to be perfect" no i am not saying that. im saying that why does everything have to happen to me. one minute i will be okay then the next i am sad and depressed. it makes no sense. i lost everyone ive ever trusted and i lost everyone ive ever loved. and no they did not die. i just cant really talk to them anymore. i really miss my bestfriend who i cannot be friends with anymore and it sucks. it really does. should i just not trust anyone at all anymore? it seems like that. or maybe im just too stupid to see that no body likes me and i am annoying and totally oblivious to the fact that nobody really NEEDS me. why am i even here? my life is a series of everyone being better off if i was gone. and i have seen that. i have seen that expression in peoples faces. people have told me that but it used to not really faze me and now all of a sudden everything is hitting me like a truck. why though? i have not done anything wrong. idk. maybe things really will change and everyone could finally live their lives without me when im gone. anyways if you actually took the time to read this i thank you! have a good day! bye.