Sunday, May 12 2013 ; 9:20 PM
I'm still crying..Tears are stinging my eyes and I can't hardly see what I'm typing. My keyboard and lap is wet with tears. My eyes are sore, and I knew it's impossible for me to smile. But..All I can do is just type. Type my feelings and hope someone cares enough to finish reading this..But if no one is reading this, then I guess I can say is that i'm hurt. I'm still crying and is writing another blog because I don't know what to do with my life. I know some of my friends are willing to listen to my problems but all they are going to do is just not understand..not understand about me. About how I feel. This has been the 100th time I have been crying over the same BS. I can't feel my heart anymore, my soul feels like it's fading.
The only thing I can do now is light up a cig..and hope that things will get better. That the future is bright..ha. My future is as bright as the inside of an ashtray.
I'll see if I can survive with nothing but cigarettes and coffee.
Wish me luck. I need it.
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