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Dealing With an Eating Disorder

Feb 27, 2018

There are images of the perfect body bombarding us every day. Super models seem to get skinner by the second and movie stars just aren't popular unless they're waif-like. You may not think that these things are going to effect you that much but as one Kidzworld member found out, it's easy to find yourself dying to be thin.

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Nickname: Sarge04
Age: 17

I'm an athlete, and I've always felt the pressure to be fit and not fat. I watched what I ate, my friends said I was probably the healthiest one out of all of them, but every once and a while, I wouldn't feel that way. The pressure to be lean and muscular sometimes got me down, to the point where I felt I had to purge - throwing up food I ate - in order to feel like I was healthy and eating the proper amounts. I knew what bulimia was when I started purging, and I thought that since I knew what it was, I could stop anytime I wanted to. That wasn't the case - it became obsessive.

After nearly six months of purging, I realized that this wasn't the way I wanted to be fit. I didn't want to be fit by throwing up what I ate, I wanted to be fit by getting out on the field and working like the other girls did. I knew I had a problem, so I went online and I found some information about bulimia. Even though I was scared - I was about to pee my pants - I talked to my parents about going to see a counselor. I went to my school counselor and I was set up with this food journal, where I wrote down what I ate, and how I felt at the end of the day. I've now gotten to the point where I don't need to write in my journal anymore. I can eat what I want, without worrying what's going to happen to me.

I still have fat days, but hey, everyone does, so I don't let them get me down. For any of you out there who had a problem like me, don't be afraid to get help! Tell someone, even though it's really hard, it shows that you're a strong, confident person, which you are inside.

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