Impulse by Ellen Hopkins is an amazing book.
I have never been so deeply effected by any book/story I have ever read.
If you don't know what this book is, I personally say you need to get it, read it, and come back here.
This is one of those books that you connect with the characters and you feel like you are there true friends by the end of the book.
This is also a very mature and serious book at points too.
Quite the tear jerker.
I'll give a summary of this book below, just to help those of you who don't have a clue about it can get the general idea.
Impulse by Ellen Hopkins;
It's called Aspen Springs
It's the place where you go when you've reached the end.
All that is here, and here is where you heal.
Tony, Vanessa and Connor have come to Aspen Springs for their own reasons.
Each is both a survivor and a killer (but maybe not how you think).
Has only once known love and never known his father, but he cannot begin a normal life without his father's help.
By all accounts he should be dangerous.
Considering substance addictions and his years in juvie, but he is also a good listener who knows a healthy relationship is possible some way, some how.
She's bipolar, only no one knows.
Her days, depressive blue and manic white, are relieved only by the red
of her self-inflicted cuts.
Unlike Tony, she has family who loves her:
A father in the armed services, stationed away from home.
But they are all guarding a secret:
Vanessa's mother, also bipolar, fell victim to her disease.
A rich golden boy.
Convinced of his prowess with women
Collapsed under pressure from a lack of love and a memory he tried to hide.
His family is like glass:
And millions of tiny cracks, nearly imperceptible individually can be hidden,
but left untreated they eventually lead to a complete breakdown.
Together, they will:
Fall in and out of love
Mess and tell
Teach and learn
Confess, defend, explain and explore.
Each stay at Aspen Springs ends at Level Four, an outdoor survival course.
Miles of desert
Scorching days and freezing nights
And no one to depend on but themselves and two guides.
Out in the desert, with nothing to think about except their survival and their futures, Tony, Connor and Vanessa will learn truths about themselves
And each other
And they will have to answer the biggest question of all:
How can they live outside of Aspen Springs?
Haunted by everything that put them there
Even if you're not into poetry
You'll be amazed
at how three
diverse, complex, real stories
can be told in so few words.
Slowly and with attention to detail
(a little bit like therapy)
three stories of near-death experience
unfold to show
that Connor's perfection is grounded in fear and desire
that Vanessa's cutting is an outlet for much greater pain
and that Tony must believe in the impossible
before he has the possibility to recover.
Just as Tony, Vanessa and Connor are drawn to each other
you will be drawn to them
as they tell their stories
in their minds
in the cafeteria
of the protected, not-quite-private, privacy of Aspen Springs.
Been three whole days since I've had sleep
'Cause I dream of her lips on your cheek
And I got the point that I should leave you alone
But we both know that I'm not that strong
And I miss the lips that made me fly
I can live without you
But without you
I'll be miserable at best