Maia looked at him, eyebrows furrowed, " why would you ask me such a question?" She sighed and played with loose strands of her midnight black hair, " well, if I had to choose, I'd pick madness. Fear makes you weak"
she spat the word unceremoniously, " Fear is having a weakness that everyone can know, everyone has a fear, but not everyone knows they do." She took a sharp intake of breath, " Madness is different, it's like your oblivious to the world and everything about it, trapped in your own wonderland. At least with madness, I'll die quickly. Because when your completely insane, you are fearless. " she ended softly, staring up at the sky.
She turned to face it, " it's only the way I look at life. " she said quietly, " I want to be fearless, to be the person that everyone looks up to for reassurance, but I can't be that person. " she paused, as if rethinking what she was about to say, " because people think of me as all powerful, 6 powers, all that stuff. They think I can win any fight with words, so I'm pulled everywhere. " she gulped down a lump in her throat, but continued before she changed her mind
" people...expect me to do things for them, expect me to be absolutely perfect, and no one in the world really understands me, " she was rambling. She needed to stop. He'd asked a question and shed answered with such a long explanation, but she couldn't stop here. Might as well. " so I go along in life living surrounded by the essence of fear. " she concluded, sadly.
"Live Life and be yourself. Each second passes by, but know that the previous one is gone, this one will never come back, and the next is coming. Alter how you spend those precious seconds, and live your life happy."- Jomeimei
"I would rather wear flowers in my hair, than diamonds around my neck"- Anonymous
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