Sindy's Blog - September 25, 2003September 25, 2003
Everything that has happened during this past week seems like such a blur. Nothing feels real and everything is moving in slow motion. My dad moved most of his stuff out of here this past weekend. He got an apartment and Amy and I are going to help him decorate this weekend. That is going to be so weird.
My mom has been such a giant jerk through all this. She says that this is for the best and that they are parting on good terms but anytime I ever mention dad she freaks out. She says she isn't interested in what HE is doing, so I shouldn't tell her about it. That's really mature. I hate to break it to her but I am going to talk about my dad whenever I want. In fact, maybe I want to talk about him every waking minute - loudly.
I hate to be selfish, I know this is hard on my mom but she doesn't seem to realize how hard it is on me to see my parents go from this couple who are always together and going on family vacations with me and my sister to a couple of people who want nothing to do with one another. How did things go so wrong? Why didn't they try to work things out? It just doesn't seem like they've thought through all their options. Haven't they heard of marriage counseling?
School has been totally fuzzy too. I sit through the lectures and the group activities but there's no concentration. How can I be expected to care about fractions, chemistry and Shakespeare when my world is crumbling around me. I haven't even been eating properly. I just want things back to the way they used to be...