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Sindy's Blog - September 18, 2003

September 18, 2003

I just don't understand why this is all happening to me. I think these past few months have, by far, been the worst of my entire life. As if Dylan breaking my heart wasn't enough drama for one semester, now my parents have to go and turn my life upside down.

They decided to break the news last night that dad will be moving out by the end of the week. We got the whole, "This has nothing to do with you," speech, which really just made me angry. We might not be the cause of their break-up but their divorce kind of affects us and it's selfish of them to think it doesn't. Man, I wish this was all just a dream - I mean a nightmare - cuz then I could wake up.

I don't know what all this even means. Am I now going to have to spend the weekends with my dad - completely ruining any chance of a social life during the school year? Where is my dad going to live? I hope he's going to have cable. They won't tell us why they're doing this, just that they're sure they are making the right decision. Yeah, it's the right decision if their goal was to ruin my life.

Oh man, I hope neither of them is going to get remarried anytime soon. It's bad enough I have to deal with them living in separate houses, I don't want to have to deal with them going on dates with other people. But I'm going to have to deal with that, aren't I? Eventually they are going to get tired of being alone and they are going to start meeting people. All I have to say right now is, "Why me?" What did I do to deserve this?

I have homework I should be doing. Not that I really care... I doubt my stupid parents would notice if I did my homework. I'm just going to go to bed now. Don't feel like thinking about this mess anymore.

Sindy

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