Harajuku, a suburb in Tokyo, Japan, is known as Tokyo's teenager town, a shopping and entertainment district geared toward Japan's most fashionable youth. From this trendy mecca has emerged a Japanese street style that ranges from cute and funky to outrageous and bizarre.
Harajuku - The Clothes
Innovative Japanese teens have blended different styles to create the Harajuku look. A fashionable mix of Japanese cute (manga), American cool (hip hop) and British rebellion (punk and goth) come together to create Loligoth (Lolita Goth). Japanese rock bands play the greatest influence on Harajuku teens, who don't define themselves as goth, but are having fun with cosplay (costume play), which is dressing up like J-rock stars. There are no rules in Harajuku style; the look is achieved by wearing anything alternative, unusual and anti-mainstream that makes them stand out and look like stars for a day - or two.
Harajuku - The Hairstyle
One of the first things you'll notice about Harajuku style is the hair - it's wildy colorful and seems to defy gravity! From scarlett red to electric blue, they dye their hair or wear shocking wigs to complete their look. These eye-catching 'dos are inspired by anime and manga, where hairstyles and clothing are distinctive features of the characters.
Harajuku - The Make-Up
Anime and manga characters influence not only hairstyle, but also make-up. Although some Harajuku teens don't wear much make-up, others go to extremes: porcelain white faces, intensely lined eyes and plucked eyebrows. This anime make-up style completely masks the face so that a teen may be unrecognizable if he or she went au naturale!
I keep saying stupid things and messing up with my friends and now they hate me. /.\ Don't say "they don't deserve you" or something, because I don't deserve them. They're great friends and I'm just... stupid.
I'm sorry dear but things do get better and its not your fault. Everyone messes up, its just a part a life. If you need to talk and explain to me with more info you can, I'm here. :)
^^This. You're not stupid either. Everybody makes mistakes and messes things up.
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