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Sindy's Blog - February 19, 2004

February 19, 2004

I'm kind of freaking out right now - but I don't know what to do. I think Kaelin wants to move a lot faster than I'm ready for, but how do I let him know that? We were watching movies on Valentine's Day at his place and he was just bein' really touchy feely, ya know? I don't want him to think I'm a lame-o but at the same time I don't want to rush into things.

Nothing actually went down on Valentine's Day. We exchanged gifts (I made him a mixed CD and got him some chocolates - he bought me flowers and this pretty beaded necklace), watched flicks, and then he took me home around midnight. It was really nice, so maybe I'm over-reacting. He just seemed to be giving off a really weird vibe. Even though it's the last thing in the world I want to do, I should probably talk to Kaelin about all this. I just really don't want him getting the wrong idea about where I think this relationship is going.

Don't get me wrong, I really like Kaelin a lot - but dude, I'm only 13. I have a lot of time to worry about taking things farther with a boy and I don't wanna start now. I hope that he's going to understand. I guess I knew this could be a problem when we started dating. He is two years older than me. I just thought we were on the same page with these things...

Meh. There's no use worrying about it right this second. I'm not going to have a chance to talk to Kaelin until Sunday at the earliest. Dad wants us to spend some time with him this weekend and I need to clear my head, anyway. Kaelin can do his own thing and hopefully by Sunday I'll have thought of something super-mature to say about this whole thing. I think I'm just going to pop in this new CD I bought by Rooney (did you see them on The O.C.? They were great!), kick back and relax. I'm so tired of the constant drama in my life! I hope it's over soon...

Peace Out,
Sindy

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    What Should Sindy Say to Kaelin?

    • Sorry, I'm just not ready to take this relationship further yet.
    • Nothing, she just over-reacted.
    • She should wait until he brings it up.
    • Nothing. She should just dump him.

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