Sindy's Blog - August 14, 2003

August 14, 2003

I don't even know where to begin. I don't think I've ever felt this bad before in my life. How do I even begin explaining what I am going through? I just had this amazing vacation with my fam and my best friend, was feeling on top of the world and then this happens! OMG!

We didn't get home until late last night but I thought, I haven't seen Dylan in weeks, and I'm sure he'll still be awake so I'll just drop by his place for a quick hello. His parents aren't as freaky about late night visitors as my 'rents are, anyway. So, I head on over, knock on the door and do you know who answers? Sara.

Now, for the record, Sara showed up at our school last semester, all alone with no friends, and I hang out with her. I introduce her to everyone - and it seems like we've become really good friends. Well, now apparently Dylan and Sara are more the good friends. Dylan was feeling lonely while I was gone so he started hangin' with Sara a lot and things "just happened".

Dylan explains this to me in the first five seconds that I'm standing there. I couldn't take bein' near either of them so I did what any normal girl would have done. I started to cry and I ran home. Yeah, I'm really proud of myself. I can't believe I started to cry. What a huge loser I am.

I still don't really know why I am so upset. It's not like we were some long-term, exclusive couple or anything - but I did think we had something. I certainly didn't think I had to worry about him finding someone new in a matter of weeks, especially not one of my friends! What was he thinking? What was I ever thinking by liking him?

I'm going to dig into a big tub of ice cream now and listen to some soulful tunes. I'm not even a fan of the ballads, but it seems like it's time for some good wallowing music. And I'm definitely in the mood for wallowing.

Peace Out,


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